To a Girl Named A

I had gathered all the courage that were not even there to begin with
To wrote this letter in hope you will read it one day
Since I am a coward, I am no man of courage

My guilty conscience kept me awake the whole time last night

She invited the dark to come play along

The dark has always been there since three years ago

Last night,

I was afraid that they'd consume all the good thoughts

I was scared, knowing they could take over all the bright places and suddenly it's just the dark

But without me....

I wrote this in hope they will leave me alone one day

To a girl named A

You're the strongest person I've ever known

You taught me much about forgiveness

You told me not to wander too far since I did not bring a map

You reminded me to be content with what I have

I'm sorry

It was my unexpected presence that hurts you in so many ways

It added another pain when you've got too many already

But you did hold on a while longer

You've fought the toughest battle

See? You're a strong girl.

I want to apologize for making your inner peace suffer all this time

I want to apologize for adding another scars to your body

I want to apologize for everything

I am sincerely wishing for better days

I wish all the good things will come to you soon

All the happiness that you deserve will always be looking for you

All the scars will eventually heal

All the bad things will stop bother you and you will grow to be even stronger than the strongest human in this earth

If I have a time machine

I would turn back time

I would like to see you in a different time, at a different place, under a better circumstance

I would like to know you through something wonderful called friendship