Senandika

Nat... can you please do one thing right in life? Just one thing. That is not much. Tired of being a mess that sabotage others life..  What is it with drama and always fu everything in your life? 

 This came out as she finishes stalking her highschool chairmate, which been having one sided for 8 months, decided to confess and got rejected. She was deeply in love Funny how feelings work. Thou Her Royal Licoriceness couldn't relate with the situation but it really does affect her, in a way that she will hold her feelings. In a word to continue living with logic and perhaps should throw away any feelings that starts creeping into her heart. She does not want to be the one stupidly, madly, in love with a person who does not even gonna love her back. Why bother falling in love with someone when she cannot even love herself first

So when? Will it finally come? The day that ends everything

Hello, Or will they be apart this time? Bid goodbye And welcome the upgraded version of her Hopefully blooming during autumn With warm bliss And stay .................

She really wish to stand on a ledge And forgive herself

Stars align but dead freeze And so the night breeze bid goodbye Thus leaving only numbness. breathless, infinite cold  Lo and behold As the dark visit once more That makes her weary, restless That makes her confused That makes her lost Or perhaps it is her very own self that made her so.. Should she blame the dark like always? Or should she blame herself this time?